Welcome to the family . We are all here to make changes . Just different starting points check out our recipe section some healthy and good tasting food there
You have to want to want it. Welcome to the site. It won't be easy. It's a total lifestyle change. BUT IT WILL BE WORTH IT.
I was out of shape and pushing 270. So what did I do. Signed up for crossfit. And the reason I signed up for Crossfit is because I knew I would be working out with other people at the same time doing the same workout and I know that they would motivate me and keep me motivated and hold me accountable for my meals and for me slacking on my workouts if I was. 9 months later I'm sitting at a decent looking 220. And I veer off my diet sometimes but I jump back on. Because I want to look better naked. I think what every man wants.
I'm sure I can speak for everybody here when I say we welcome you with open arms there are lots of things you can change with your diet and so on but like you said excuses are excuses don't beat yourself down too bad and let it get the best of you you taking the biggest death of all and admitting you know what your problem is now it's just time to fix it.
I'm sure the guys around here will be excellent support system for you