At this point you probably know you've been stupid. That aside, you need at the very least clomid, nolva & aromasin.
Without ostarine & gw you'll probably lose a bunch of the muscle you gained but at least you'll live..
If you seriously cannot afford them I hope you have a good medical insurance, because you're gonna need that for the damage you'll be getting.
We're talking about thousands of euros annually for self-caused need for TRT for the rest of your life + all the other medical bills you'll get.
This could very well be the case regardless of what you do tho...