So I'm gonna be as objective as I can and try to assist those with questions about if AAS use will affect your mood... primarily anger.
My perception of myself: I consider myself a very laid back person. Yes, I admit I have a switch, but I try to reserve it for matters regarding persons disrespecting my family members that I love. I'm protective by nature of them, so that makes sense to me. I consciously and actively try to pursue reasonable means to resolve issues unless the other party is unreasonable. I'm used to being in charge of matters and situations and that sometimes presents an issue. That's how I view myself.
Others perception of me: People generally think I look like an asshole. I never smile, seldom laugh and basically have no filter. My wife says when I get upset it's scary. My son says the only people who can control me, or settle me down is him partially and my wife. I do get angry to the point where my heart races, my skull tingles and I see flashes of white lights across my eyes, I pace in an effort to not do something stupid and my hands cannot have anything in them because I will either throw it, break it or use it as a weapon situation applicable. When I am calm, people see me as a big giant teddy bear, but the few people that have seen me get angry know I go from zero to 1000 in about .02 second.
Things I have done: Let's just say I'm very fortunate to have a clean record.
Active resolution and mitigation methods I use: Meditation, pinching myself to remind myself not to act up, walking away from conflict - works as long as they STFU, laughter, braethe control, staying away from public places as often as possible, Meds.
What I know about myself: If I picture myself as being a mellow person I actively try to be that mellow person. Yes I have sense of humor and yes people seldom start conflict with me, or quickly back down when they get a good glimpse of me. I'm too big to be fighting, people will stab, or shoot me more likely than get into a physical altercation with me with their hands... I kinda like not bleeding (unless it's from a pin stick i can deal with that). At age 45 this behavior is stupid, I'm too intelligent to be fighting when I can usually just not go there instead, I don't back down. I might afford someone a chance to walk away calmly, but if it happens too quickly I very well might end up in jail, dead, or prison.
What's to be learned: If for some odd reason you're just that big of an asshole and you decide to run gear realize your inner asshole will become your outter asshole at some point in time. You need to realize this and avoid situations and persons that can cause this to occur. If you know there is potential for a problem, simply avoid the places, persons and situations that might trigger bad behavior. There is no excuse. You're an adult and blaming it on the gear is plain stupid, you know right from wrong both legally and morally. Gear use requires as much active participation being calm as it does trying to get big. It's a responsibility you have to yourself to stay out of conflict because telling someone 'the gear made me do it' is a piss poor excuse that won't stand up anywhere in a court. Perhaps your AAS use should be a slow and steady effort instead of an all out attempt at gaining 100 pounds in one cycle/blast, this might help minimize your bouts of anger as well.
My perception of myself: I consider myself a very laid back person. Yes, I admit I have a switch, but I try to reserve it for matters regarding persons disrespecting my family members that I love. I'm protective by nature of them, so that makes sense to me. I consciously and actively try to pursue reasonable means to resolve issues unless the other party is unreasonable. I'm used to being in charge of matters and situations and that sometimes presents an issue. That's how I view myself.
Others perception of me: People generally think I look like an asshole. I never smile, seldom laugh and basically have no filter. My wife says when I get upset it's scary. My son says the only people who can control me, or settle me down is him partially and my wife. I do get angry to the point where my heart races, my skull tingles and I see flashes of white lights across my eyes, I pace in an effort to not do something stupid and my hands cannot have anything in them because I will either throw it, break it or use it as a weapon situation applicable. When I am calm, people see me as a big giant teddy bear, but the few people that have seen me get angry know I go from zero to 1000 in about .02 second.
Things I have done: Let's just say I'm very fortunate to have a clean record.
Active resolution and mitigation methods I use: Meditation, pinching myself to remind myself not to act up, walking away from conflict - works as long as they STFU, laughter, braethe control, staying away from public places as often as possible, Meds.
What I know about myself: If I picture myself as being a mellow person I actively try to be that mellow person. Yes I have sense of humor and yes people seldom start conflict with me, or quickly back down when they get a good glimpse of me. I'm too big to be fighting, people will stab, or shoot me more likely than get into a physical altercation with me with their hands... I kinda like not bleeding (unless it's from a pin stick i can deal with that). At age 45 this behavior is stupid, I'm too intelligent to be fighting when I can usually just not go there instead, I don't back down. I might afford someone a chance to walk away calmly, but if it happens too quickly I very well might end up in jail, dead, or prison.
What's to be learned: If for some odd reason you're just that big of an asshole and you decide to run gear realize your inner asshole will become your outter asshole at some point in time. You need to realize this and avoid situations and persons that can cause this to occur. If you know there is potential for a problem, simply avoid the places, persons and situations that might trigger bad behavior. There is no excuse. You're an adult and blaming it on the gear is plain stupid, you know right from wrong both legally and morally. Gear use requires as much active participation being calm as it does trying to get big. It's a responsibility you have to yourself to stay out of conflict because telling someone 'the gear made me do it' is a piss poor excuse that won't stand up anywhere in a court. Perhaps your AAS use should be a slow and steady effort instead of an all out attempt at gaining 100 pounds in one cycle/blast, this might help minimize your bouts of anger as well.
