I know I shouldn't have done gear when I did but I was impatient and a little reckless. I was overweight and didn't do my research but frustrated that I wasn't getting to my goals with the training and supps. I found gear from a work buddy that dealt and several online but went with my work buddy since I thought I would get legit gear and advice. I was afraid of needles and opted for an all orals cycle. I felt like shit on it and my liver felt it. I had raised liver enzymes such that my doctor ordered ultrasound and bloods to see if I had Hep (which I don't). My buddy actually advised against orals but I was chicken so....Anyways after that cycle I did research and took the plunge into pinning my gear. I did a few cycles but still didn't have my diet in check so I just got wicked strong and big but didn't get the "athletic look". I think my last cycle included Tren/Test and high dosages of it. Got the Tren Cough, Rage, highs and lows in my emotions. Sex was great with the gf but the fights we had made it not worth it. I got some of my gear and PCT stuff from my DR. but on the last one my Dr. decided to not participate. So my PCT got screwed up. I ended up keeping my gains in strength and size for a little while but then the cortisol kicked in, I was heavily shut down and not doing correct PCT so my health suffered and I gained fat. Since then I've recovered fully but still need to recomp. I'm getting my diet in check with a high protein/ low carb diet but even if I get to a point where gear could catapult me to the best me I can be in the mirror, the sides are not worth it. That's just me, take it as you will.