Hey guys,
This is a personal story of mine that I would like to share with the forum. It's mostly for the young, inexperienced, impressionable guys about the importance of researching, reading, and researching some more before you ever put something into your body, or if your contemplating running a cycle. If this story can influence just one person to stop, think, and constantly search for knowledge, then it will have served its purpose.
If you watch any of Dylan's videos you will find that a reoccurring theme is health and safety. Multiple time he has stressed about having knowledge to the utmost before ever attempting to run a cycle. I could not agree more, and wish I had found resources, like this forum, 5 years ago.
Five years ago, I was impressionable and reckless, and decided to put my faith in a sales clerk at nutrition chain, that I will not name, but I'm sure you guys can figure it out. Keep in mind, pro hormones were completely legal back then. I decided to run a cycle of Trenavar, and unfortunately, trusted the Sales guys when he told me that all I would need for ancillary protection was arimistane, and all I would need for PCT was some bullsh** D-Aspartic Acid and God knows whatever herbal scams the "PCT" product had. LMAO/SMH ....Little did I know that this would lead me into a 2 year battle that would produce life-long battle scars.
Knowing what I know now of how stupid oral only cycles are, and how reckless and dangerous it is not to have the proper ancillaries, makes me wish I had a time machine to go back, and tell that sales guy what a POS he is. However I made the decision, and I take full responsibility for my the consequences that occurred. Mid-way through the cycle, I suffered sever shutdown. I had nothing controlling my prolactin, and had hormonal imbalances like you wouldn't believe. For the first time in my life I experienced Anxiety and Depression like you wouldn't believe. Imagine not being able to get out of bed, every step you take you're convinced your going to die, and on top of all of it you're in the middle of Graduate School, and now are failing because you cannot go to class! Those of you who have battled with depression and anxiety know the horrors of what i'm talking about. On top of all of this, no doctor wanted to give me any kind of PCT. So I suffered for almost 4 months waiting on my levels to return to normal. I also, experienced gyno, that I still battle with today, and ultimately may have to have surgery to remove. The only thing that got me through this dark time was being put on an SSRI anti-depressant. However, there's the rub! What I didn't realize is being on an SSRI is a battle in itself. Once your body is on an SSRI, you cannot just stop taking it! Your body needs it, and you have to slowly taper off and withdraw, which is a whole other kind of hell! Which if you have a job or other commitments like school, it's hard to find time to withdraw. It took me almost 3 years after this to fully recover, and I am pretty sure that my natural test will never be as high as it once was, and may have to get on TRT as I get older.
However, the light at the end of the tunnel was a bright one. I still battle with anxiety, but have it under control and have mastered it. I am on the brink of graduating from Grad School, and have done multiple successful cycles. I have reclaimed my life, and have been killing it in the Gym for the past three years. It was a long climb out of that dark valley, but I learned a lot about myself as a man, and have bettered myself emotionally, spiritually, and physically.
I want to encourage anyone who is unexperienced, and who is thinking about starting any kind of cycle...research, research, research! Know what the hell you are doing and then some! Don't listen to these scam artists like Tony Huge, and all these other snakes youtube. Study for yourself, and model those like Dylan and knowledgeable guys on this forum who actually care about your health.
At the end of the day....If you don't have your health.....you have nothing!!
This is a personal story of mine that I would like to share with the forum. It's mostly for the young, inexperienced, impressionable guys about the importance of researching, reading, and researching some more before you ever put something into your body, or if your contemplating running a cycle. If this story can influence just one person to stop, think, and constantly search for knowledge, then it will have served its purpose.
If you watch any of Dylan's videos you will find that a reoccurring theme is health and safety. Multiple time he has stressed about having knowledge to the utmost before ever attempting to run a cycle. I could not agree more, and wish I had found resources, like this forum, 5 years ago.
Five years ago, I was impressionable and reckless, and decided to put my faith in a sales clerk at nutrition chain, that I will not name, but I'm sure you guys can figure it out. Keep in mind, pro hormones were completely legal back then. I decided to run a cycle of Trenavar, and unfortunately, trusted the Sales guys when he told me that all I would need for ancillary protection was arimistane, and all I would need for PCT was some bullsh** D-Aspartic Acid and God knows whatever herbal scams the "PCT" product had. LMAO/SMH ....Little did I know that this would lead me into a 2 year battle that would produce life-long battle scars.
Knowing what I know now of how stupid oral only cycles are, and how reckless and dangerous it is not to have the proper ancillaries, makes me wish I had a time machine to go back, and tell that sales guy what a POS he is. However I made the decision, and I take full responsibility for my the consequences that occurred. Mid-way through the cycle, I suffered sever shutdown. I had nothing controlling my prolactin, and had hormonal imbalances like you wouldn't believe. For the first time in my life I experienced Anxiety and Depression like you wouldn't believe. Imagine not being able to get out of bed, every step you take you're convinced your going to die, and on top of all of it you're in the middle of Graduate School, and now are failing because you cannot go to class! Those of you who have battled with depression and anxiety know the horrors of what i'm talking about. On top of all of this, no doctor wanted to give me any kind of PCT. So I suffered for almost 4 months waiting on my levels to return to normal. I also, experienced gyno, that I still battle with today, and ultimately may have to have surgery to remove. The only thing that got me through this dark time was being put on an SSRI anti-depressant. However, there's the rub! What I didn't realize is being on an SSRI is a battle in itself. Once your body is on an SSRI, you cannot just stop taking it! Your body needs it, and you have to slowly taper off and withdraw, which is a whole other kind of hell! Which if you have a job or other commitments like school, it's hard to find time to withdraw. It took me almost 3 years after this to fully recover, and I am pretty sure that my natural test will never be as high as it once was, and may have to get on TRT as I get older.
However, the light at the end of the tunnel was a bright one. I still battle with anxiety, but have it under control and have mastered it. I am on the brink of graduating from Grad School, and have done multiple successful cycles. I have reclaimed my life, and have been killing it in the Gym for the past three years. It was a long climb out of that dark valley, but I learned a lot about myself as a man, and have bettered myself emotionally, spiritually, and physically.
I want to encourage anyone who is unexperienced, and who is thinking about starting any kind of cycle...research, research, research! Know what the hell you are doing and then some! Don't listen to these scam artists like Tony Huge, and all these other snakes youtube. Study for yourself, and model those like Dylan and knowledgeable guys on this forum who actually care about your health.
At the end of the day....If you don't have your health.....you have nothing!!
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