No matter how much size you put on...

[44YOGearHead]

... it never seems like enough. People say I'm huge, or a monster, people watch me in the gym when I train, I get compliments everywhere I go, women stare and it drives the wife nuts, but whenever I look in the mirror I don't see it and it drives me nuts. On occasions I see it and it's motivating, but generally I can't see myself having enough size to call myself "BIG". The mental aspect of this sucks. Is this just an obsession? Or is it a flaw?

 

[Tazz]

it's called "bigorexia"

 

[44YOGearHead]

it's called "bigorexia"

STFU that's bullshit bro. I saw that fruitcups video on that and of course his twig ass would say that.

 

[Tazz]

STFU that's bullshit bro. I saw that fruitcups video on that and of course his twig ass would say that.

For real tho, I could go for a fruit cup rn , want to split one with me ?

 

[RickRock]

... it never seems like enough. People say I'm huge, or a monster, people watch me in the gym when I train, I get compliments everywhere I go, women stare and it drives the wife nuts, but whenever I look in the mirror I don't see it and it drives me nuts. On occasions I see it and it's motivating, but generally I can't see myself having enough size to call myself "BIG". The mental aspect of this sucks. Is this just an obsession? Or is it a flaw?

I think it's a mindfuck we all go through. But to be perfectly honest, I'm starting to get to the point where I'm really happy with my size. I want maybe another 10lbs-15lbs of lean mass total, and I'm good with that look. I really don't want more than that, but I will always strive to get a better overall physique, and getting better dimensions, conditioning, and symmetry

What it all comes down to is we are never satisfied, and can always see ways to get better. That's not necessarily a bad thing. It keeps us motivated with a goal always in front of us

 

[44YOGearHead]

Yeah I know, but this shit is obsessive almost... actually it is if you look at it and the lengths we go in search of what we want.

 

[Tazz]

Yeah I know, but this shit is obsessive almost... actually it is if you look at it and the lengths we go in search of what we want.

that's really what bodybuilding is when you get down to it, a self induced torture all while chasing this physique that is never good enough and we think always needs improvement


PHARMACOM Board Rep
http://pharmacomstore.org
Worldwide Pharmacom Labs Official Distributor since 2008

 

[Almighty100%bodyfat]

Post a pic and we'll say if you have enough size!

USE CODE "5DC" FOR 5% OFF AT Roids24.co

 

[SmittyRoc]

when you are out there trying to be the best you can be you will always find flaws in your design. its almost by instinct that we are the biggest criticizers of ourselves. i'm 200lbs and people always tell me the damn scale i'm using is wrong because i dont look like it.

but when i look in the mirror i know the guy i'm looking at is 200lbs.

its most definitely a mindfuck at times.

 

[DylanGemelli]

Yeah I know, but this shit is obsessive almost... actually it is if you look at it and the lengths we go in search of what we want.

we all go through it... fuck, you know how many days i find something flawed in the mirror where i feel like maybe im not as cut as i think etc... my wife thinks im way beyond crazy but fuck, when your so passionate about something, to the point we are at, that's just the way it is but its almost hypocritical to what we teach others as well... its just something you have to try to overcome and constantly work on it... im going for a bit more size to try something new this next cycle... anadrol kick with winstrol... only 25 mg of anadrol and 25mg winstrol but i know my body responses and they are pretty drastic on anything i take for size... i took ultradrol about 4 or 5 years ago and i was fucking 210 from 185 in right around three weeks or so... and i was doing 90 minutes of cardio a fucking day... if that tells you anything... we are the types that just always have goals and once we get one we want more... its not greed, its the desire to constantly improve...

 

[cbbram00]

Post a pic and we'll say if you have enough size!

USE CODE "5DC" FOR 5% OFF AT Roids24.co

Yeah let's see a pic!!! The only one I've seen is the one of you with Jay Cutler.

PHARMA LADY REP
PM FOR PRICE LIST

 

[Almighty100%bodyfat]

Post a pic. Post a pic. Post a pic.

USE CODE "5DC" FOR 5% OFF AT Roids24.co

 

[44YOGearHead]

Post a pic and we'll say if you have enough size!

USE CODE "5DC" FOR 5% OFF AT Roids24.co

You always want a pic of me lol... here:

View attachment 2367

 

[EZ_E]

^^^^ Good Lord.

We all go thru this. We wouldn't be us if we didn't. Here's the issue; YOU see yourself in the mirror every day. The best judge is someone who DOESN'T see you every day.

 

[44YOGearHead]

^^^^ Good Lord.

We all go thru this. We wouldn't be us if we didn't. Here's the issue; YOU see yourself in the mirror every day. The best judge is someone who DOESN'T see you every day.

Yeah I know, sometimes I look forward to cooler weather that'd allow me to cover up more so perhaps I could get that effect on myself from time to time. I dunno man I know it's a mind fuck, but like I was telling Alpha via PM to me I only look big to myself if I see a pic of myself standing next to someone else. I always feel normal sized and as much work as we all put in this you'd think we'd know where we were on the size charts lol. I figure in 2-3 years I'll have the size I want. We shall see, or someone else will because I never see it....fuck.

 

[44YOGearHead]

Yeah let's see a pic!!! The only one I've seen is the one of you with Jay Cutler.

PHARMA LADY REP
PM FOR PRICE LIST

I think my feeling of inadequacy keeps me from taking pics bro. I'm no lil' bitch, but I never feel worthy of a pic to show my size, or lack thereof. My brain fucks with me like that. When I looked at the pic of me with Jay Cutler I was in awe. When he told me I had nice size and asked if I competed I swore he was blowing smoke up my ass until I saw the pic. As cocky of a shithead I am, or can be I never feel like I'm good enough to sit there and post pics yet alone take them.

 

[44YOGearHead]

we all go through it... fuck, you know how many days i find something flawed in the mirror where i feel like maybe im not as cut as i think etc... my wife thinks im way beyond crazy but fuck, when your so passionate about something, to the point we are at, that's just the way it is but its almost hypocritical to what we teach others as well... its just something you have to try to overcome and constantly work on it... im going for a bit more size to try something new this next cycle... anadrol kick with winstrol... only 25 mg of anadrol and 25mg winstrol but i know my body responses and they are pretty drastic on anything i take for size... i took ultradrol about 4 or 5 years ago and i was fucking 210 from 185 in right around three weeks or so... and i was doing 90 minutes of cardio a fucking day... if that tells you anything... we are the types that just always have goals and once we get one we want more... its not greed, its the desire to constantly improve...

I know you're absolutely right, but damn this is so so hard to overcome. I'll never be where I wanna be physique wise no matter how many ppl ask me if I'm a body builder, or tell me how jacked I look. IMO they just have no idea what they're talking about. The only time I feel big (this is a dickhead confession) is when some other weightlifter tries to get all Alpha when they see me somewhere because my eye is so discerning I've already dissected all of their muscular short comings in comparison to my own and usually I have fewer. My wife asks me to go shirtless at times (beach or lake) and to me I'm not where I wanna be to do so. This is a very frustrating journey we all take indeed.

 

[EZ_E]

We're always our own worst critic. I do it with my physique too. And @ my office. Let the experts judge....for you; Jay Cutler, for me; my coach. Don't get in your own head brotha....

 

[RickRock]

^^^^ Good Lord.

We all go thru this. We wouldn't be us if we didn't. Here's the issue; YOU see yourself in the mirror every day. The best judge is someone who DOESN'T see you every day.

That's true, but most people (at least in my case) will give you big compliments and tell you that you are big enough and ripped enough and ask how much more you really want.....of course we don't listen to that

 

[JackSteel]

Its mental. My family tells me I'm "too big" already and it makes me laugh. I just tell them they will really hate it when I reach my goal then lol. It's just like having tattoos. When you have them long enough you no longer see them when you look in the mirror.


Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk